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♥denise ♥natalie ♥samantha ♥xue ting ♥yink ♥zi xuan

haha im back to the blogging world again, check out the birth of my new blog: http://superbsmashingnova.blogspot.com/

and oh xuan, its your turn to create one now! :)

Wanted to blog about V. day a few days back but keep forgetting. Anyway he sent a big bouquet of flowers to my house on V. day. Shocked me so much, but was touched =D And nothing much after that, just dinner at some restraunt and movies after that.

Hey Denise don't be sad over Ivan anymore. It's really not worth it. You always tell me to be strong, now it's your turn to show me what is being strong. You've treasured him, but did he? Seriously speaking, I don't really have positive feelings about that 20+ guy, but it;s still entirely up to you to decide! So long as you're happy, we'll support you! =D

Sam glad you're feeling "free-er" now. Haha. So many guys going after you. Envious. But I'm great with just 1! Anyway, wish you the best of luck for your love life. =P

Exams are coming, and again I havent study anything for it yet. =( I tell myself to study but I don't know why I just don't want to do it.

Alright all the best to all of us!! Score well and get to year 2!!

hey girls, im here again! its been awhile!

denise: like what the girls have already said, perhaps there's no point dragging this r/s any longer. it takes two hands to clap, and if his isnt clapping then i guess its best to move on and feel loved again girl! (for now, there's two guys for you to choose from.) I know you are feeling sad/disappointed enough and you shouldnt drag it any longer, find out what he really wants from this r/s! But if he's not responding then its best to end it. But ultimately, its still your own choice! No matter what, just follow your heart and i'll always be here yeah!

Who says valentine must definately be spent with you love one? I had my fair share of valentine the past few years and its something different this year! My valentine was well spent although it wasnt with a boyfriend or a guy that i like. Ernest spent it with his churchmates and I spent it with my group of friends, consisting of three single girls! haha it was great fun bonding and chatting for the longest time we could, dined at sushi teh and headed to the esplanade thereafter.

and oh i wanna thank you girls for the advices given earlier on! i appreciate it :)) I have moved on, moving on as in letting nature take its course for ernest and i. I don't wanna feel sad or confused and keep guessing his moves, its tiring! and for now, there's another guy in the picture. he expressed his liking for me but i wanna know him longer for now. he's my friend's friend, got to know him for quite sometime and he's also in nyp!

thats all for now girls. my valentine was well spent, how about you girls? see ya all soon! <3<3s

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yea totally agreeded wif yink & nat... if he avoided the conversation abou him & pearly then he's in guilt... so no point wasting time on him & making urself so hurt... move on... like u says, there's this 20+ guy rite... he can b more sensible & mature enough to know wad yar feeling & understand & appreciate the things u do. In that way u'll feel more love...

As for me, ytd my Valentine day was juz the usual things thou, candle light dinner at 'The Tavern' then walk at clarke quary... & he gave me a puzzle of our photos & a ipod earpiece( is practical cuz he knows mine the wire broke off) but he didn get the things I WANT!!!! lolz. i *HINT* him so many times alr lolx...
hahahha nvm... but then, honestly... i felt that the Valentine nite was nth at all... juz usual dates we had...
i've nth to say le.....

CYA girls soon....
<3>

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HELLO GIRLS.

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY !!!!! LOVE YOU ALL. MUACKS

I shall blog about my vday at my own blog if not it's gonna take up lots of space. How did you girls spend your vday? I'm curious to know!!!

Anyways XUAN darling, did you guys quarrel or something? How come you will get that kinda feeling all of a sudden.. hmm.. maybe after facing the same guy for a long time, you'll tend to get sick and tired of him and start looking for alternatives. Sometimes i'll feel that being with someone is more like a habit, and not love. That's why i will think that my feelings faded for Sebas. Its like when you lose drive in doing things for 1 person and making that person happy, then i think there's no point holding on anymore. BUT xuan! Your relationship has alr been going on for 2 years , dont you think its like a waste to give it all up just like that? Don't think too much.. you guys can work things out together.. maybe this kind of obstacles you face can make the r/s stronger. =) you'll never know!

Regarding the Valentine e-card, HE DIDNT EVEN OPEN THE EMAIL AH?! Wahlao, how can like that?!?!?!? He shouldn't delete it esp after knowing that its from you.. and what kind of dumb excuse is that.. I don't believe 1 e-card can take up so much space in the mailbox. =s Did you talk to him? Ask him why is he behaving like that.. just tell him that you feel that he's changed and ask him whats wrong.. maybe he can tell that your feelings fading alr.. If so, he should at least do something to win your heart back! Ha.



DENISE:
I still think Ivan is a bastard and Pearly is a bitch. So maybe you shouldnt care about him anymore!! It isnt the first time that this kinda ignoring thing is happening right? I know that its hard not to go and think about it.. if i were you, i wouldnt know what to do as well. Arr. Just put down your pride and go msg him! Talk to him. Make him talk to you... must have interaction! Ask him what the hell does he want out of this relationship.. and tell him that youre unhappy about the Pearly thing and youre not joking. Maybe he thinks youre joking thats why he doesnt take it seriously. I know you love him and all, you cant bear to let him go right? But sometimes, when a guy is not worthy of your love, its time to give up. Must be like me.. DO THE RIGHT THING! ha. Yea and i agree with Nat, dont waste your time on a jerk like him. Maybe that 20+ guy is even better than him. At least he's sensitive to your feelings and knows how to make you happy. Seriously i think being happy is the most impt thing in a r/s . If youre not happy then theres no point carrying on lar. Its like self-inflicted pain!!!!

Sometimes you just gotta move on when it's time...

We will be behind you girls, whatever your decisions are! HOR??

Pls dont be stupid like me and waste your time on a jerk that is not worth it at all. haha.

GOODBYE ALL! GOODNIGHT :D


btw, this is YINK.

Alright, I've been going thru' this a million times over in my head and suddenly. I really don't know what to do anymore. I keep running conversations thru' my head, one person is Me and of course the other person is Ivan. I reply on Ivan's part like I want him to say things. Up til this point, I hope you gilrs understand me. I tell myself things I wanna hear. I know it's damn wrong but I can't help it.

Okae here goes, my long rant. It's been four days since Ivan spoken a word to me and I really don't know what's going on between us anymore and I'm tired of asking and asking. Because when I tell him my unhappiness he just goes and brushes it off like I'm arrowing him and tells me that he has a big heart for accepting all my negative feelings towards him. I know it's wrong for him to say that but I've become weak when it comes to me, he makes it feel like whatever he says is right and I am complaining instead of my intention to share how I feel. It makes me shuts up when it comes to my feelings. Always telling myself that it's okay and it's alright but I know deep down inside that it's not right, it's not right at all. But I don't know why instead of ending it, I go bury myself deeper in it, blaming it on myself and it's really tiring me out like crazy. I feel so sad and depressed most times and I can't share it with my boyfriend who claimed in the past that he would be there for me whenever I need him. Right now, he is never there. In the past I just trudged on, with a heavy heart, hoping that he'll pay some attention to me. Set a side some time to play boyfriend. He has long stopped sending me home and when he does, he complains about the distance. I go to his home every week. I don't complain. When I'm there, I'm full of love but when I leave, I feel empty. What's the reason? Other than that, we don't go out or have any dates that he plans. He's stopped calling and rarely smses. I'm the one always msging him before I sleep at night but I've stopped those too cuz I don't feel I should anymore.

He doesn't care about how I feel. Mebbe he does just that I don't feel it anymore. It has become one whole numb cycle. Now it's longer than when we broken up since we saw each other and you know, when I type all this out, it sounds like it should have ended already. Yet I'm still with him, uncertain of everything. It'll take just one 'I love you' to crumble me again. And I don't wanna hear just words from him anymore. Actions does speak louder than words. The only way I know how to find comfort is engaging myself with many other guys, to feel wanted and needed makes me happy. To feel desirable and special. But somehow, I'm not contented with what I'm getting from the other guys. I just cannot accept that Ivan ignores me. I just can't. No guy has treated me this way before, escpecially when they are boyfriend title. And it really annoys me that he goes out with Pearly. This has been bothering me since we started and I've never been sure of their 'friendship'. But whatever, I just take his words for it that they are just friends. I asked him very early in the relationship, 'You liked Pearly right?' and his answer was most un-satisfying.

'Used to it already.'

What is that supposed to me and what girl in right mind would just brush it off? I know I haven't been able to. The way she's always around. The way she behaves that makes what she does seem alright but you just know deep down inside, it's so God damn wrong she should perish in hell. Okay, for this I'm exaggerating. But I don't really care because nothing beats the wrath of women. I have so much to go on but this is wearing me so thin. I feel I'm going to break and I really don't know what to do anymore. I wish someone would just sweep me off my feet and tell me everythings going to be alright. Then I take a long nap and wake up, everything is gone. Ivan erased from my memory. I think I still love him if I can't stop thinking about what he's doing and all that. Other times I don't think I love him, cuz I hate him so much for treating me this way. And then I think I love him again becuase without love I can't hate him. And it's really confusing.


Then there are 2 guys now.
The new guy and the ex-boyfriend.
The new guy is over 20 and is really experienced so he knows what I wanna hear and what I need. It's exciting and it's scary at the same time.
The ex-boyfriend is really sweet since he hasn't dated another girl since we broke up and he says he loves me enough to give me the world.

Then there's Ivan, who doesn't say anything and just keeps quiet and it's really an emotional turmoil for me. Every night I go to bed, with a heavy heart. And I just don't know what to do anymore. I've said this so many times right? Fuck. Thats how I feel, I feel like Fuck.
I think this time shopping can help me. Shopping, I need to shop. I need money. So badly.




Still, with my wounded heart and all, I'm sending love.
xoxoxo

Take care my precious.

Hey girls.. i guess everyone's feeling moody now.. fred not cuz natnat will save u! haha erm, if i can save tat is...
jokes aside...

relationship sometimes come to a point where you feel a little lost or when things go out of ur control... thats cuz u... only when u understand someone to the extend of bad points of that someone.. things are bound to happen.

jus be clear of ur feelings and dun mix them up or compare it with someone else... it'll influence ur decision... and of cuz choose ur path wisely... OK GIRLS?!!!

all the best in wateva u girls decide ya...? =)

seriously i dun really understand myself now... m'i asking too much from him? i dun noe... or isit that i'm juz too unreasonable.
i dun hav the valentine day mood this yr... hav my love for him faded or wad?
and today he juz pop up this qns asking me will i ever fall for another guy... i paused for awhile and ans him mayb...
thou is not my intention to said that straight frm my heart, my mouth juz said it...
in this little heart of mine, i do love him deeply... but in my little brain, i've gt this "huan xiang" that this is not our yr, our r/s 'll end no matter wad reason...

*btw, i've sent him a valantine day e-card... & he juz deleted it, not giving it a damn thought. When i asked him, he says he dun rmb wad isit bou alr...
So i confessed on him y can't he keep it inside his mail {as it only a small file, wun take up lotsa space anyway)
he gave me a damn GOOD excuse man! his mail is too full alr... which i think y can't he delete other mail or mayb create a folder to keep it yea...
so u gals think that isit him in the wrong or m'i juz kickin up a fuss?

sorry for this vry random entry.. lolx

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Hey Yink here!

I thought it was XT who posted that.. and she thought it was me. Wth lar. hahaha!! Anyways xuan, are you REALLY 100% SURE that you love little lulu ?! Cause i also think its a waste to end your current r/s with your bf. Is it your feelings fade / sian already ? Hmm but whatever your decision is, i will support you!! Just like how you all supported me. :D

Sam, ehhh Ernest seems like a nice guy. But then again I dont deny that the saying is true. Most of the ACS guys are BASTARDS!!!!!! Maybe Ernest is one of the rarer species? Hahaha.. you never know, right? Anyways since he likes dropping hints so much, why dont you drop hints to him also and try to get him to confess to you or something? It might work..! LOL. good luck =)

And yes, I am also screwed for the test tmr.. seriously i dont know anything.. CATCH NO BALLS!!!!!! grr......

and something more screwed. Im broke lah!! Vday is coming.. how to buy gifts?

I need to rob a bank soon.

Wow, sam so clever. Haha I was wondering for quite long who was the one who penned the entry before sam did! Tot was yink but she would have told us instead of typing here =X Anyway I agree with sam. Xuan you shouldnt give up on your boyfriend for that LULU. Anyway that LULU already has a girlfriend? Then he's bad to say he'll wait for you! Sam if you really like ernest then go for it! We'll support you! Not all guys who come from ACS are playboys. He might be the special one who is not! =)
Anyway things are starting to get better for me and jason already =D
Okay now for studies, I think I will fail this sem. Haiz. I know nothing about DE and I've got the GD project to do. Totally no time to study at all! All the best girls!

ohwell, i totally agree with xuan's statement "LOVE is a potion that causes us to fall into the trap".

And i think xuan you shouldnt give up on your boyfriend just like that! its been a 2year plus long r/s, it would a pity to break up just like that (provided you don't love him anymore). For that guy LULU i guess its just an infatuation or crush right at this moment!?

Hey girls, I've actually been equally confused abt ernest! We have been going out very often and i do enjoy his company and stuffs like that. He can be very sweet at times & he never fail to brighten me up. I admit i do have strong feelings for him right now, but but im not sure about him. Somehow, I can tell that he's not those kind of straight-forward guy when it comes to love. I don't know whether is it a one-sided thing as sometimes i can feel that he's hinting something. Urgh, i don't know what to do whenever i think of it! There's this famous saying that says: "Most or all ACS guys are playboys!". HAHA ohwell :/ As you girls know, im not that kind who will take the initiative and ask how he feels! Its like no way! So am i just gonna wait like that or just move on??

Seriously, I feel so much better after typing this whole chunk of thoughts out!

my lovely girls: All the best for upcoming exams and common test! lets organise more outings yeah! haha love you all <333s

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I think LOVE is a potion that causes us to fall into the trap.
Now thinkin back of ytd, i did had fun and enjoy the moment with him but...
i shouldn hav asked him to accompany me out =l

[SMS}
Vince: heeyy i'm bored at hm, goin out anywhere?
ME: hmm, yup wif my mum... u wanna join us? =)
Vince: okay, sure i anything...

the whole night was kinda quite and.... [ u noe, goin out wif sm1 u like b4 and he likes u too] aniwae, he alr gt a gf nw.

back hm he [MSN] me and ask me out the blue
LULU: u like me?
ME: i tot is u like me?
LULU: don't u like me?
LULU: yeah i admit i did like u b4
ME: i did like u oso la
blushing...
LULU: so we didn actually knew we like each other b4
LULU: aiya wasted la... if not we may b together nw
ME: hmm. mayb la who knows...
LULU: mayb in future we'll
LULU: i'll wait for u then
i was losted at words
ME: alright, i gtg CYA...

my brain is totally blank
i dun noe if he mean it or wad... but i know shouldn hav given him a chance
BUT in me, it makes me want to believe wad he says
or shou i give him a chance? [ this wou disappoint my bf ]
sometimes i really dun understand me la
this kinda thing mus be vry 'jian ci' to give an ans...i juz couldn help it to make myself in this unstable state...
how how how?
is silly to think of breakin up with my bf nd stead with him cuz we hav been really best buddy for 10 over yrs moreover so many gals are ard him..
i'm afraid to lost him as my best pal if we really are together.

OMG! this is the longest post i've ever posted in here la... hahahaha

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I'm really sick and tired of all this dont care thing coming from jason. I love him alot and I know he loves me alot too but i really feel like letting go. I need lots of attention from him but all he cares about is his work and nothing else. Other girls msg him he will be so sweet to reply, but what i get when i msg him? I feel like I'm not thinking about him anymore. Its like a daily routine to receive his call at night and maybe out of the blue a msg from him. I seriously have a feeling this will be a sad valentine's day for me. =(