WE LOVE LOLLIES

TINKY WINKY!

2007-08-26T01:10:00.000+08:00

I don't know how and where to start, I'm just very very very upset. It seems like nothing is going my way. What I want is just very simple. I just want an explanation from him. I just want him to tell me what the hell is going on! Is that too much to ask for? What's with the MIA and avoiding for? Seriously I don't know what to say anymore.

He's with a stupid full moon, at least thats what I think. They like each other but I'm not sure if they together or not. But at the very least he should tell me something! Its like you know someone like you and you didnt make it clear all the while. And now you found someone you like and who also likes you. So is there any slight responsibility that at the very least you should just tell the person who still likes you so that the person can just give up? Thats what I feel lah.

Even until the level of irritation, until when even I'm irritated by myself, he still has no response. Its really unfair to me. I'm always the one giving and giving. Now I'm too tired to give anymore, I have nothing left to give, I'm drained of all energy. I'm really sick and tired. Dont want to continue with this anymore. But somehow I just cant seem to stop myself from loving him despite him being such a bastard. I just cant stop my heart from aching whenever I think of him. Sometimes I really hate myself for being so stupid. I hate myself for being so persistent and everything, in the end hurting nobody but myself.

All the promises he made, it all sounded so true. I trusted him too much, and in the end he betrayed my trust. He told me after he achieved what he wanted, he will be with me again. He told me to trust him and he will not disappoint me. I mean he told me all this like 1 month ago! Should I just continue trusting him? It felt so stupid. Whatever I felt about us, about us becoming better and stuffs, it all seemed so far away. We're not even friends now. Its love or hate, lovers or enemies. The word friends will never exist in his dictionary between us.

You know what? Out of the blue he actually smsed me that day saying "Just don't fucking touch my girl". What is that supposed to mean? I'm a witch? So everyone who hangs out with me will be brainwashed by me to quit the job? So that means I'm trying ways and means to make people working under him quit so that he can never promote? To him, I'm evil. He told his ex girlfriend that I may look cute and nice on the outside, but I'm actually very evil inside (his ex gf told me that). He's the one who wanted to be friends, but is that the way you treat a normal friend? Why do I have to go through all this shit? I felt somehow all this things start with me. All the problems start with me. Its all my fault that things come to this so I deserve all this retribution?

SebasOng is so crazy and irritating when he's trying hard to keep yink. But am I just as irritating as him? I don't want to be like him. But I don't want to lost jason as well.

What girls want is just very simple. We just need someone to love us and care for us with the whole of their heart (and of coz we love them also). Everything would seem so right if things would just be like what we wanted. But all I want is even lesser than that. Just an explanation from him. Thats all..Really, I don't want anything more. Or rather, I don't dare to hope for anything more.

I'm very emotionally unstable now. And I just cant stop crying over this. Who understands the pain in me?

Without you girls, I think I really cant make it till now. Thanks for always listening to all my nonsenses and craps and always by my side when I needed someone. Thanks. I really love you girls! <3

CONTRIBUTION

2007-05-20T02:22:00.000+08:00

YINK the alibaba is here and im here to contribute to nat's unglam photos collection! :D

i'm bringing sexy butt..! [guess whose?!] WEE HOO! -whistles-

what's denise doing?

the GREEN couple. aww so loving!

the PIG in our class!...

the ~~cat~~NAT from SHREK!

PEEK

A

BOO!!!!!!!!!!!!

D to th E to th N-I-S-E-T-A-Y

2007-05-19T23:48:00.001+08:00

Special tribute to Natalie. :] Who agrees that she's one helluva awesome babehhhh! Always there to lend a listening ear and the most steady girl I've ever met! Caring and sincere girl and I love her soo soooooo much! HEHEHEHE! First friend I made in NYP omg! :DD She has changed much since I first met her and I love her th way that she is! Don't y'all! HAHAHA! Don't worry lollys! I LOVE Y'ALL TOO!

GSS IS COMING DUDETTES! :)
Loves!
xoxoxo

nat the paparazzi part 2!

2007-05-19T01:05:00.000+08:00

yes... its me in action again! up with new photos! WAHAHA.

aww.. isnt tat cute??? sweet smiles from sammy and xuannie!

oh? who's sexy butt is tis? LOL

AH...~ paying attention i see.. seldom see these 2 pay such attention.. LOL =x

WOW! the wind blowing her hair! sexeehh~~

DAVE's chest... LOL. sorry ppl.. cant take girls chest.. i have to take a guy's one instead. LOL

somebody's pentehh~~ LOL

look at xuan sticking her tongue!!! and ting slping in the background.
2 in 1.. im such a photographer. LOL

the end... shall stop taking lame pics fer a while... LOL cuz its time to give me a break. LOL.

natty the paparazzi...

2007-05-03T21:54:00.000+08:00

here are a couple of private shots.. haha! jus fer the lollys to enjoy!!!

SMACK THAT all on the floor... SMACK THAT.. gimme some more.. haha!!! credits to denise's smack.. and zixuan's butt... HAHA!!!

AND now.... for some sexy backs!!! yea baby! haha...

GUESS whose sexy back is this???

Ryan's sexy back... LOL...

Sam's sexy back...!!!
AND of cuz.. yink's sexy side..!!

Yink's attempt to kiss xueting!! haha!!!

GUESS whose sexy pink thong is this??? haha... =x

AND credits to me... nat. CUZ.. im paparazzi who took the pics without them knowing.. LOL..
except fer the smack tat pic.. LOL they pose fer me.. LOL...

TSK TSK.

2007-05-02T03:58:00.001+08:00

can somebody update something?!?!?! ALAMAK. its always YINK.

YINKcredible (:

2007-03-28T02:21:00.000+08:00

HELLO. no one has been posting anything recently ?!?! no?!?!

school is starting in 2 weeks. OHMYGOD. so fast!!!! argh.

shopping spree at malaysia with nat and denise today was FUN!! it was damn fast-paced though. the fastest shopping spree i ever had. we each bought a tshirt and 2 pairs of heels. denise bought BOOTS and a dress. nat and i bought a dress each as well. DAMN NICE!!!!!!

i'm loving it :D

i wanna go back there again... damn!!!

btw, we should all wear our white dresses together. :D yayyyy!

LOVE YOU GIRLS <3

SAMMY's here!

2007-02-20T15:32:00.000+08:00

haha im back to the blogging world again, check out the birth of my new blog: http://superbsmashingnova.blogspot.com/

and oh xuan, its your turn to create one now! :)

Ting here!

2007-02-19T18:30:00.000+08:00

Wanted to blog about V. day a few days back but keep forgetting. Anyway he sent a big bouquet of flowers to my house on V. day. Shocked me so much, but was touched =D And nothing much after that, just dinner at some restraunt and movies after that.

Hey Denise don't be sad over Ivan anymore. It's really not worth it. You always tell me to be strong, now it's your turn to show me what is being strong. You've treasured him, but did he? Seriously speaking, I don't really have positive feelings about that 20+ guy, but it;s still entirely up to you to decide! So long as you're happy, we'll support you! =D

Sam glad you're feeling "free-er" now. Haha. So many guys going after you. Envious. But I'm great with just 1! Anyway, wish you the best of luck for your love life. =P

Exams are coming, and again I havent study anything for it yet. =( I tell myself to study but I don't know why I just don't want to do it.

Alright all the best to all of us!! Score well and get to year 2!!

SAMMY speaks:

2007-02-16T09:15:00.000+08:00

hey girls, im here again! its been awhile!

denise: like what the girls have already said, perhaps there's no point dragging this r/s any longer. it takes two hands to clap, and if his isnt clapping then i guess its best to move on and feel loved again girl! (for now, there's two guys for you to choose from.) I know you are feeling sad/disappointed enough and you shouldnt drag it any longer, find out what he really wants from this r/s! But if he's not responding then its best to end it. But ultimately, its still your own choice! No matter what, just follow your heart and i'll always be here yeah!

Who says valentine must definately be spent with you love one? I had my fair share of valentine the past few years and its something different this year! My valentine was well spent although it wasnt with a boyfriend or a guy that i like. Ernest spent it with his churchmates and I spent it with my group of friends, consisting of three single girls! haha it was great fun bonding and chatting for the longest time we could, dined at sushi teh and headed to the esplanade thereafter.

and oh i wanna thank you girls for the advices given earlier on! i appreciate it :)) I have moved on, moving on as in letting nature take its course for ernest and i. I don't wanna feel sad or confused and keep guessing his moves, its tiring! and for now, there's another guy in the picture. he expressed his liking for me but i wanna know him longer for now. he's my friend's friend, got to know him for quite sometime and he's also in nyp!

thats all for now girls. my valentine was well spent, how about you girls? see ya all soon! <3<3s

xuan is here again

2007-02-15T12:34:00.000+08:00

yea totally agreeded wif yink & nat... if he avoided the conversation abou him & pearly then he's in guilt... so no point wasting time on him & making urself so hurt... move on... like u says, there's this 20+ guy rite... he can b more sensible & mature enough to know wad yar feeling & understand & appreciate the things u do. In that way u'll feel more love...

As for me, ytd my Valentine day was juz the usual things thou, candle light dinner at 'The Tavern' then walk at clarke quary... & he gave me a puzzle of our photos & a ipod earpiece( is practical cuz he knows mine the wire broke off) but he didn get the things I WANT!!!! lolz. i *HINT* him so many times alr lolx...
hahahha nvm... but then, honestly... i felt that the Valentine nite was nth at all... juz usual dates we had...
i've nth to say le.....

CYA girls soon....
<3>

Let me read your fortune..

2007-02-15T01:44:00.000+08:00

HELLO GIRLS.

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY !!!!! LOVE YOU ALL. MUACKS

I shall blog about my vday at my own blog if not it's gonna take up lots of space. How did you girls spend your vday? I'm curious to know!!!

Anyways XUAN darling, did you guys quarrel or something? How come you will get that kinda feeling all of a sudden.. hmm.. maybe after facing the same guy for a long time, you'll tend to get sick and tired of him and start looking for alternatives. Sometimes i'll feel that being with someone is more like a habit, and not love. That's why i will think that my feelings faded for Sebas. Its like when you lose drive in doing things for 1 person and making that person happy, then i think there's no point holding on anymore. BUT xuan! Your relationship has alr been going on for 2 years , dont you think its like a waste to give it all up just like that? Don't think too much.. you guys can work things out together.. maybe this kind of obstacles you face can make the r/s stronger. =) you'll never know!

Regarding the Valentine e-card, HE DIDNT EVEN OPEN THE EMAIL AH?! Wahlao, how can like that?!?!?!? He shouldn't delete it esp after knowing that its from you.. and what kind of dumb excuse is that.. I don't believe 1 e-card can take up so much space in the mailbox. =s Did you talk to him? Ask him why is he behaving like that.. just tell him that you feel that he's changed and ask him whats wrong.. maybe he can tell that your feelings fading alr.. If so, he should at least do something to win your heart back! Ha.

DENISE:
I still think Ivan is a bastard and Pearly is a bitch. So maybe you shouldnt care about him anymore!! It isnt the first time that this kinda ignoring thing is happening right? I know that its hard not to go and think about it.. if i were you, i wouldnt know what to do as well. Arr. Just put down your pride and go msg him! Talk to him. Make him talk to you... must have interaction! Ask him what the hell does he want out of this relationship.. and tell him that youre unhappy about the Pearly thing and youre not joking. Maybe he thinks youre joking thats why he doesnt take it seriously. I know you love him and all, you cant bear to let him go right? But sometimes, when a guy is not worthy of your love, its time to give up. Must be like me.. DO THE RIGHT THING! ha. Yea and i agree with Nat, dont waste your time on a jerk like him. Maybe that 20+ guy is even better than him. At least he's sensitive to your feelings and knows how to make you happy. Seriously i think being happy is the most impt thing in a r/s . If youre not happy then theres no point carrying on lar. Its like self-inflicted pain!!!!

Sometimes you just gotta move on when it's time...

We will be behind you girls, whatever your decisions are! HOR??

Pls dont be stupid like me and waste your time on a jerk that is not worth it at all. haha.

GOODBYE ALL! GOODNIGHT :D

btw, this is YINK.

DENISE HOLLARS

2007-02-13T15:15:00.001+08:00

Alright, I've been going thru' this a million times over in my head and suddenly. I really don't know what to do anymore. I keep running conversations thru' my head, one person is Me and of course the other person is Ivan. I reply on Ivan's part like I want him to say things. Up til this point, I hope you gilrs understand me. I tell myself things I wanna hear. I know it's damn wrong but I can't help it.

Okae here goes, my long rant. It's been four days since Ivan spoken a word to me and I really don't know what's going on between us anymore and I'm tired of asking and asking. Because when I tell him my unhappiness he just goes and brushes it off like I'm arrowing him and tells me that he has a big heart for accepting all my negative feelings towards him. I know it's wrong for him to say that but I've become weak when it comes to me, he makes it feel like whatever he says is right and I am complaining instead of my intention to share how I feel. It makes me shuts up when it comes to my feelings. Always telling myself that it's okay and it's alright but I know deep down inside that it's not right, it's not right at all. But I don't know why instead of ending it, I go bury myself deeper in it, blaming it on myself and it's really tiring me out like crazy. I feel so sad and depressed most times and I can't share it with my boyfriend who claimed in the past that he would be there for me whenever I need him. Right now, he is never there. In the past I just trudged on, with a heavy heart, hoping that he'll pay some attention to me. Set a side some time to play boyfriend. He has long stopped sending me home and when he does, he complains about the distance. I go to his home every week. I don't complain. When I'm there, I'm full of love but when I leave, I feel empty. What's the reason? Other than that, we don't go out or have any dates that he plans. He's stopped calling and rarely smses. I'm the one always msging him before I sleep at night but I've stopped those too cuz I don't feel I should anymore.

He doesn't care about how I feel. Mebbe he does just that I don't feel it anymore. It has become one whole numb cycle. Now it's longer than when we broken up since we saw each other and you know, when I type all this out, it sounds like it should have ended already. Yet I'm still with him, uncertain of everything. It'll take just one 'I love you' to crumble me again. And I don't wanna hear just words from him anymore. Actions does speak louder than words. The only way I know how to find comfort is engaging myself with many other guys, to feel wanted and needed makes me happy. To feel desirable and special. But somehow, I'm not contented with what I'm getting from the other guys. I just cannot accept that Ivan ignores me. I just can't. No guy has treated me this way before, escpecially when they are boyfriend title. And it really annoys me that he goes out with Pearly. This has been bothering me since we started and I've never been sure of their 'friendship'. But whatever, I just take his words for it that they are just friends. I asked him very early in the relationship, 'You liked Pearly right?' and his answer was most un-satisfying.

'Used to it already.'

What is that supposed to me and what girl in right mind would just brush it off? I know I haven't been able to. The way she's always around. The way she behaves that makes what she does seem alright but you just know deep down inside, it's so God damn wrong she should perish in hell. Okay, for this I'm exaggerating. But I don't really care because nothing beats the wrath of women. I have so much to go on but this is wearing me so thin. I feel I'm going to break and I really don't know what to do anymore. I wish someone would just sweep me off my feet and tell me everythings going to be alright. Then I take a long nap and wake up, everything is gone. Ivan erased from my memory. I think I still love him if I can't stop thinking about what he's doing and all that. Other times I don't think I love him, cuz I hate him so much for treating me this way. And then I think I love him again becuase without love I can't hate him. And it's really confusing.

Then there are 2 guys now.
The new guy and the ex-boyfriend.
The new guy is over 20 and is really experienced so he knows what I wanna hear and what I need. It's exciting and it's scary at the same time.
The ex-boyfriend is really sweet since he hasn't dated another girl since we broke up and he says he loves me enough to give me the world.

Then there's Ivan, who doesn't say anything and just keeps quiet and it's really an emotional turmoil for me. Every night I go to bed, with a heavy heart. And I just don't know what to do anymore. I've said this so many times right? Fuck. Thats how I feel, I feel like Fuck.
I think this time shopping can help me. Shopping, I need to shop. I need money. So badly.

Still, with my wounded heart and all, I'm sending love.
xoxoxo

Take care my precious.

NatNat!!!!!

2007-02-09T02:13:00.000+08:00

Hey girls.. i guess everyone's feeling moody now.. fred not cuz natnat will save u! haha erm, if i can save tat is...
jokes aside...

relationship sometimes come to a point where you feel a little lost or when things go out of ur control... thats cuz u... only when u understand someone to the extend of bad points of that someone.. things are bound to happen.

jus be clear of ur feelings and dun mix them up or compare it with someone else... it'll influence ur decision... and of cuz choose ur path wisely... OK GIRLS?!!!

all the best in wateva u girls decide ya...? =)

wondering

2007-02-09T00:13:00.000+08:00

seriously i dun really understand myself now... m'i asking too much from him? i dun noe... or isit that i'm juz too unreasonable.
i dun hav the valentine day mood this yr... hav my love for him faded or wad?
and today he juz pop up this qns asking me will i ever fall for another guy... i paused for awhile and ans him mayb...
thou is not my intention to said that straight frm my heart, my mouth juz said it...
in this little heart of mine, i do love him deeply... but in my little brain, i've gt this "huan xiang" that this is not our yr, our r/s 'll end no matter wad reason...

*btw, i've sent him a valantine day e-card... & he juz deleted it, not giving it a damn thought. When i asked him, he says he dun rmb wad isit bou alr...
So i confessed on him y can't he keep it inside his mail {as it only a small file, wun take up lotsa space anyway)
he gave me a damn GOOD excuse man! his mail is too full alr... which i think y can't he delete other mail or mayb create a folder to keep it yea...
so u gals think that isit him in the wrong or m'i juz kickin up a fuss?

sorry for this vry random entry.. lolx

Funny

2007-02-07T16:27:00.000+08:00

Hey Yink here!

I thought it was XT who posted that.. and she thought it was me. Wth lar. hahaha!! Anyways xuan, are you REALLY 100% SURE that you love little lulu ?! Cause i also think its a waste to end your current r/s with your bf. Is it your feelings fade / sian already ? Hmm but whatever your decision is, i will support you!! Just like how you all supported me. :D

Sam, ehhh Ernest seems like a nice guy. But then again I dont deny that the saying is true. Most of the ACS guys are BASTARDS!!!!!! Maybe Ernest is one of the rarer species? Hahaha.. you never know, right? Anyways since he likes dropping hints so much, why dont you drop hints to him also and try to get him to confess to you or something? It might work..! LOL. good luck =)

And yes, I am also screwed for the test tmr.. seriously i dont know anything.. CATCH NO BALLS!!!!!! grr......

and something more screwed. Im broke lah!! Vday is coming.. how to buy gifts?

I need to rob a bank soon.

2007-02-06T22:53:00.000+08:00

Wow, sam so clever. Haha I was wondering for quite long who was the one who penned the entry before sam did! Tot was yink but she would have told us instead of typing here =X Anyway I agree with sam. Xuan you shouldnt give up on your boyfriend for that LULU. Anyway that LULU already has a girlfriend? Then he's bad to say he'll wait for you! Sam if you really like ernest then go for it! We'll support you! Not all guys who come from ACS are playboys. He might be the special one who is not! =)
Anyway things are starting to get better for me and jason already =D
Okay now for studies, I think I will fail this sem. Haiz. I know nothing about DE and I've got the GD project to do. Totally no time to study at all! All the best girls!

SAMMY's confused thoughts

2007-02-05T18:21:00.000+08:00

ohwell, i totally agree with xuan's statement "LOVE is a potion that causes us to fall into the trap".

And i think xuan you shouldnt give up on your boyfriend just like that! its been a 2year plus long r/s, it would a pity to break up just like that (provided you don't love him anymore). For that guy LULU i guess its just an infatuation or crush right at this moment!?

Hey girls, I've actually been equally confused abt ernest! We have been going out very often and i do enjoy his company and stuffs like that. He can be very sweet at times & he never fail to brighten me up. I admit i do have strong feelings for him right now, but but im not sure about him. Somehow, I can tell that he's not those kind of straight-forward guy when it comes to love. I don't know whether is it a one-sided thing as sometimes i can feel that he's hinting something. Urgh, i don't know what to do whenever i think of it! There's this famous saying that says: "Most or all ACS guys are playboys!". HAHA ohwell :/ As you girls know, im not that kind who will take the initiative and ask how he feels! Its like no way! So am i just gonna wait like that or just move on??

Seriously, I feel so much better after typing this whole chunk of thoughts out!

my lovely girls: All the best for upcoming exams and common test! lets organise more outings yeah! haha love you all <333s

2007-02-04T14:04:00.000+08:00

I think LOVE is a potion that causes us to fall into the trap.
Now thinkin back of ytd, i did had fun and enjoy the moment with him but...
i shouldn hav asked him to accompany me out =l

[SMS}
Vince: heeyy i'm bored at hm, goin out anywhere?
ME: hmm, yup wif my mum... u wanna join us? =)
Vince: okay, sure i anything...

the whole night was kinda quite and.... [ u noe, goin out wif sm1 u like b4 and he likes u too] aniwae, he alr gt a gf nw.

back hm he [MSN] me and ask me out the blue
LULU: u like me?
ME: i tot is u like me?
LULU: don't u like me?
LULU: yeah i admit i did like u b4
ME: i did like u oso la
blushing...
LULU: so we didn actually knew we like each other b4
LULU: aiya wasted la... if not we may b together nw
ME: hmm. mayb la who knows...
LULU: mayb in future we'll
LULU: i'll wait for u then
i was losted at words
ME: alright, i gtg CYA...

my brain is totally blank
i dun noe if he mean it or wad... but i know shouldn hav given him a chance
BUT in me, it makes me want to believe wad he says
or shou i give him a chance? [ this wou disappoint my bf ]
sometimes i really dun understand me la
this kinda thing mus be vry 'jian ci' to give an ans...i juz couldn help it to make myself in this unstable state...
how how how?
is silly to think of breakin up with my bf nd stead with him cuz we hav been really best buddy for 10 over yrs moreover so many gals are ard him..
i'm afraid to lost him as my best pal if we really are together.

OMG! this is the longest post i've ever posted in here la... hahahaha

<3 new hair cut again

2007-02-04T13:16:00.000+08:00

i juz cut it ytd =P

picture speaks a thousand words

ting complains..

2007-02-01T18:49:00.000+08:00

I'm really sick and tired of all this dont care thing coming from jason. I love him alot and I know he loves me alot too but i really feel like letting go. I need lots of attention from him but all he cares about is his work and nothing else. Other girls msg him he will be so sweet to reply, but what i get when i msg him? I feel like I'm not thinking about him anymore. Its like a daily routine to receive his call at night and maybe out of the blue a msg from him. I seriously have a feeling this will be a sad valentine's day for me. =(

DENISE HOLLARS

2007-01-31T12:27:00.000+08:00

Hahaha! Damn right we haven't be updating. No more enthusiasm. -_-
I know yink you love your boyfriend. God-sent lah. HAHAHAHAHA.

When are we going to the beach? Not only no one updates, no one tags. So that means, no one reads. AHHH! :O

Punishments will be issued out accordingly. Teehee!

Hello everyone, this is Yink!!

2007-01-31T00:33:00.000+08:00

Hey girls, we all haven't been updating regularly nowadays. Haha. Busy with projects, common tests, exams and boyfriends. MUAHAHAHA.

I love my boyfriend. =D

I love you girls too!!

And yong tau foo.

Yink says yink so ting says tink

2007-01-29T16:05:00.000+08:00

This blog has been dead for such a long time already. Girls blog!! haha exams are coming so good luck everyone!

Next season coming up: Valentine's Day

Very excited about it but also too broke to be excited. =(

Best wishes to you girls. And most importantly to Yink, for your new love. =D

natnat speaks

2007-01-10T22:50:00.000+08:00

HEY GIRLS...!!! wassup y'll been a little quiet here lately.. but nvm we shall rise above the occasion again. =)

i guess u girls mux be bored so i shall post a pic to entertain a little. whahaha!

TING SHOUTS!

2007-01-01T18:42:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR GIRLS!!!

Tiring holiday for me, but glad my efforts paid off coz we won the dynamic title challenge! Haha and another great news is Jason decided he's suffering and whants to go back to his true self so me and him patched up already... =) Just pray hard that everything will be better than before. =D

Take care girls and wish me luck! =D

It's yink again..

2006-12-16T11:04:00.000+08:00

Sebas and I have broken up last night..

I find myself unable to trust him as much as i did before, and the feeling just sucks. I don't think he would give up clubbing for me. Will he? I know he's trying his best to change and I can see that. But i guess it's just too late. I am very very certain that if he bothered to change earlier, things will definitely be different now. We might even get married. But yea, its not the case anymore.

There were lots and lots of tears.. i almost died crying. I know i've hurt him and disappointed him, especially when he said that i treated him like a fool for the past 2 weeks? I was really trying hard to revert back to my old self but most of the trust is not even there anymore.. I really tried and make myself forget about that incident but i just cannot. To make things better, there was a party at Zouk on Tuesday night.. Luckily i went to kbox with Nat if not i would've gone crazy and paranoid at home.. you girls should know that.. hah.

I know that Sebas didnt wanna end it.. he's damn sad about it.. well, so am i. He has treated me well for the past 2 weeks and i have treated him well for 7 months already. I guess im just too tired and sick of all this that now when he finally is willing to change, it no longer affects me anymore. I know i'm damn heartless and all.. i dont know what to do now. Just gonna see how things go. We are not even on talking terms now. He wanted to delete and block me from msn.. hows that? = forget it, i shall not even bother him from now on.

C onfused

2006-12-14T22:00:00.000+08:00

ITS MY TURN TO BLOG, like finally i am not lazy already.

Things are not getting better. Nothing is helping. LOL. I'm just more and more confused as each day passes. F*ck larrrrr. Argh. SOMEHOW I still dont dare to blog about anything here. I am like scared that people will hack.

=O

Take care girls, and XUAN have fun in NZ!! Pluck some apples for us k! APPLE!!!!!!!

Love, yinkcredible (:

NZ

2006-12-14T05:02:00.000+08:00

hihihiihihiihihihihi hellOOoooooooooooooo
can u girls hear me?! haha i'm shouting right across from NZ!!!

aniwae i miss u gals la...
so decided to blog since i woke up so early...
interesting photos coming up =)

this is the first place i'm staying in for the first day... LOL

DENISE HOLLARS

2006-12-12T21:21:00.000+08:00

Alot happened. I don't know how to explain or say it. I'm still confused but we are back together and this blog, side track abit, kinda dead. -_-

Just to keep you girls updated.
Bon Voyage Zi Xuan, hope you bring back lotsa goodies~ :D

Love, xoxo

NAT's ENTRY...

2006-12-09T23:31:00.000+08:00

guess wat i saw my ex with his new gf today.. i was kinda shocked to see him. he sorta gave a smile but i looked away... anyway i was kinda happy.. haha cuz im like HAPPY without him. most importantly i was out with a guy fren. so HAHA... let him tink wat he wants to tink. anyway his gf like keep on staring at me... even after they walked out of the shop. (we were at HMV heeren btw.) so weird lar...

i told my guy fren tat guy was my ex.. then he turned to look... then he said : "ur ex like some poser AH BENG, cuz he like follow those ahbeng carry that kinda bag." HAHA! i even add on YA LOR..! haha..!

DENISE HOLLARS

2006-12-05T09:35:00.000+08:00

Hey you girls, what's going on? I don't know who penned the last entry, so I started with "Hey you girls.." Hahaha! Anyway, hope you enjoy your Escape! outing.

Love, xoxoxo

Todays my 7th month with Ivan. LOLOL. Ghost month. :x
Dreamt of an old friend and I miss her so much, but she's changed beyond words and I feel sad for her.

2006-12-03T20:09:00.000+08:00

Things isnt getting any better for me. In fact much worst.

another new hair cut!

2006-12-02T00:06:00.000+08:00

nat-nat whines: ARGH...! i told the lady not to cut so short.. but eventually still cut until so short... haiz.. anyway.. wat matters most is that it looks good. SO girls does it look good?

as fer yinks... looks pretty much neat cuz the curls haf been layered off.. and she has to use wax or wat to style her hair... so do i..! haha..

DENISE SCREAMS

2006-11-28T19:41:00.000+08:00

Excessive shopping; It has become a serious problem. Everybody's living in a material world and I am a material girl. There's never enough bags, or shoes, or things. I always wanna get more and I can't seem to help/stop myself. My mom even dreamt of us fighting cuz' I spent too much money. It's becoming a headache.

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I did the skin myself. (Hehehe!)

Thankfully, Ivan and I kissed and made up. Hopefully no more fights until his birthday. Cya girlies tmr! :DD

our new hairdo :/

2006-11-28T09:46:00.000+08:00

yeah been wanted to get a bob-concave style-cut & finally had the courage to do it can. Two & a half hours of anticipation, haha was quite worried at first, but tadaa the result was pleasing!!! its kinda SHORT though =) Xuan's one was not bad too. okay girls, i'll let the 2 pictures do the talking:

colouring part starts today! hopefully it'll turn out nice man :)

love u girls! <33

i'm happy

2006-11-27T23:21:00.000+08:00

hehehe* today went to cut hair wif sam after sch... i'm so excited bou it for so long alr... dun noe y i'm always so anxious bou cutting hair.. lolx... usually girls r so afraid of cutting their hair... mayb i've got this thinkin that hair will grows no matter how short u cut...
i'm a optimistic personthats y... hahaha

aniwae done with my haircut, it took 2 & a half hr to finished with the cut...lolx... -_- till my butt got numb whAHaha
sad thing is, i'm not able to cut concave bob cuz the hairstylist said my top hair was too short... but still i cut the miss seventeen 2006 the cover hairstyle... smirks*
Looks kinda nice =X oops
Sam's one too.. hers look much more different than b4.. she'll give u girls a shock....
double smirks*

tml i'm goin to dye my hair too =)
haha.... i'm so excited again

<333333
xuan

advice?

2006-11-26T23:25:00.000+08:00

hey my dear lollipoppy girls,
i noe i'm not in the shoes of u girls & i wun possibly understand wad u all r goin throu... but still i juz wanna tell u all to love urself more than anyone self, dun ever let those shitty(i mean the guys =X) out there take u for granted okie =)
and dun treat them so nice, let them hav the chance to miss u more than u do =P
hahahaa oops =X m i being too nasty?!
sorry my dear dear, u noe i dun treat u liddAT or do i...
hee*

aniwae juz try it out...

<3yink:juz forget bou him & u will b able to meet the right after that, like wad nat's quoted

<3denise: dun think too much bou that,may b he juz want to make u jealous & probably test out ur feeling for him? juz think optimisticly alright =)
btw, i'm not a lucky girl... mayb it wou b my turn soon after u
i dun noe, somtimes i'm really worried too that when will it happen to me...
a little silly of me thinking bou this now but i nd to b prepared for the worst rite... haha

<333333
lollypoppygrils

Its my turn to rant. :\

2006-11-26T12:03:00.000+08:00

Well, I don't know if Sebas can overcome passwords but I really cannot keep all of this to myself already. I will explode sooner of later. That's why I requested for this blog to be kept private. So that we can blog about what we really feel instead of restricting ourselves cause it's true that some people dislike their girlfriends / ex to blog about them.

November 2006 is like the most UNLUCKY month I've ever experienced in my whole life. I think it's even worse than April 2002 when i broke my leg in school. I'd rather break legs and arms than lose people's trust in me. Fuck. I really feel so screwed. I told Maddy that Nana is targetting this girl called dollies in friendster, and she went to tell Cassy!! (Nana's ex) Okay, firstly she promised not to tell Cassy cause it will jolly well get me into shitloads of trouble with Nana and I trusted her for that. After that, she told me that Cassy and her were 'laughing about it' <- about Nana being unable to jio dollies , and I was thinking why did she tell !! Still, I thought it was okay cause I did not think that Cassy would go and approach Nana and ask him about it. But she did just that. :( And now Nana probably hates me like fuck cause I'm like a fucking spy among them? Like a freaking backstabber and all.

Sebas called me last night and said that he's disgusted with me. Well, I am disgusted with myself too. Why do problems keep arising esp when I'm close to those 2 girls? I'm not blaming them for anything but maybe it's just me cause i've really misplaced my trust in them. Sigh. And he said that he wouldn't give a damn about me anymore. He said that his opinion of me has changed totally and so did his friends'. He says that I've changed for the worse, I keep making making the same old mistakes over and over again and never repent. Maybe it's cause I like to shoot my mouth off, that's why I kept on saying the wrong things / things that I shouldn't be telling. I told him that I would change for the better and make him feel the change in me. He said 'see how la'.

I didn't cry or anything last night after the phone conversation with him.. I guess I'm already numb to all of these. Then again, it doesn't mean that I am not sad.. I'm going to change my attitude. You girls gotta help me too. Maybe I can only bitch to people whom I really trust. Instead of people i barely known for a month? Sigh. What a wrong move. Misplacing my trust and getting betrayed by them. I can only say that it's my retribution. I must make sure that I won't be so big mouthed anymore in future and YA, sometimes some things you gotta keep it to yourself.

I am not hoping for Sebas to come back to me after feeling that I've changed or what. I am going to change for the sake of myself because I know that this sort of rubbishy fucked up attitude would get me nowhere in future. Arghh. I realised that all these fucked up shit only happened after we broke up. and new people entering my life.

Is there really nothing else I can do to gain his trust back for me? I used to be such a perfect girl in his eyes.. and now I only make him disgusted with me. WTF IS WRONG WITH ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Fuck. I hate myself too.

yink

DENISE SCREAMS

2006-11-26T11:04:00.000+08:00

Yesterday I went for steamboat. Well it sucked like hell aite! ;_;
It felt like Ivan just ditched me. It seemed like he paid more attention to the other girls and it hurt like hell. Because I thought he would be different from the other guys I've dated. Haha! Always the same old shit and more. 2 days before the outing, he promised to hold my hand and hold it tight, haha, guess what, another empty promise. When I was alone, looking as bored as ever, he didn't even come talk to me. Even when he did was, it was just like a walk past and I was left alone again. I was so tired I didn't bother to talk to anyone much. I just wanted to go home. I didn't wanna make a scene. No use talking to him, one way or another, he would just repeat the same ol' same ol' and frankly, I'm tired, hurt and very sad.
Later on he asked for the time and I said 10pm.

And he just said, "Oh no! If I send you home, there wouldn't be any transport left for me..."
It was my que to say,"It's okay, there are many people going the same direction as me."
He said,"Yeah! You still dare to say! I alone, leh!"
Me, *weak smile*. My heart sinking, I knew it was going to be over soon.

What's the point of hurting so much yea? Especially when he doesn't even know he's hurting you. All the promises he's made, all the things he's said to tease and taunt you when they aren't the least bit funny, for what? Going to his house to look for him, and in the end he sleeps. Going home alone after that. Well at least now he sends me to the bus stop. I just wish that I could turn back time and go back to when we just met and he really treated me like how I deserve to be treated, he would always worry about me and make sure that he sent me home. It's okay if he doesn't send me home but at the same time it isn't okay. I don't know to explain the feeling. He said I could find someone who would treat me better, right now, I think so too. I don't wanna keep using the excuse of breaking up to make him treat me better. Now I want a clean break if I ever mention the topic of breaking up. I almost could say I've had enough. Hahaha I guess this is breaking season.

Sooner or later Ivan would read this because he knows how to overcome the password. And I hope he does, so he'd know how I feel. But does it really matter that he knows, because it'll still be the same and nothing would change. He would even be angry for posting this here for you girls to read. Now it's his turn to get mad. And if your wondering how I got home last night? Well his buddies cabbed me home. And this guy, my god-brother, is those touchy-feely types, I just wished Ivan was there with me in the cab. Haha, now when he sends me a good night message, I thank God. This is almost nonsense. Never love a love that hurts. Damn right I won't.

It's almost moving on, long gone. Tears start to roll. Haha! I would definitely follow my preaching to you girls.

Xue Ting; Ditch Jason for good, he isn't worth your tears one bit!
Nat; I still loveeeee your laughter.
Yink; You should really just forget about Him and move on. You know by now you deserve so much better. Guys just don't know how to appreciate the good shit they are given when it's right infront of their fugly faces.
Zi Xuan; You lucky girl! =P
Sam; Another lucky and smart one for not getting yourself into r/s. HAHAHA!

Okay lollypoppies, cya tmr at school!
Love,
xoxoxo

Once again

2006-11-25T23:21:00.000+08:00

Hello, i am here to post again. I spent my whole Saturday rotting at home. So damn fucking boring pls. I'm sick like shit, have been running a fever for 2 days. Or is it 3? I don't know. My throat is damn pain too.. Don't worry i will make it to school on Monday!

Anyway wtf man, i got warning letter from NYP. Cause I missed 6 hours of Graphic Design. LOL. And i think i'll receive another one soon for Frankie's module. Congrats to me.

Girls, shall we make this a private blog? I mean, we dont link this blog from anywhere.

i <3 lollipop girls
and <3<3 nat !

love, yink

Nat Nat's first post

2006-11-25T15:42:00.000+08:00

hey y'all... my turn to post. and its my first entry in lollypops! haha.

hey yink, dun tink abt the past lar... look forward to the future. ur sweet 17* still a long way to go till marriage. LOL. and along the way you'll meet better guys. i got this quote from my fren: "Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one, so that when we finally meet the person, we will know how to be grateful." =) and my dear darling yink pls go get lots of rest, take care ok? im not much of a advisor or a talker BUT more of a listener and lend u my shoulder, kind. =P u can jus pour all ya "junk" out fer me to listen, LOL.

anyways we shall party party after our common test ya? party till siao! haha... k la, tink i tink until so far fer wat, stil got another 3 weeks or so.

<3 lollipop girls
<3 yink

Hard to love you

2006-11-24T21:36:00.000+08:00

Post pics of your hair!!!

If I could turn back time, things wouldnt be so screwed up like they are now. Sigh.
SO MANY REGRETS.
I've made so many mistakes, but I have been trying to change.
Totally no hope? I'm really confused.

Why do you make it hard to love you?

I've been wrong but I've been changing
I've been wondering what to do.
Here I am, alone and waiting
For you.

love, yink

DENISE SCREAMS

2006-11-24T20:53:00.000+08:00

Aloha! :DD

Yay! I just came back from the salon. My new hair-do! *Smiles myself silly* Anyway...
Yink: Why d'ya wanna turn back time?

Notice
Discuss about the party soon? :)

Love,
xoxoxo

First post by YINK.

2006-11-24T20:14:00.000+08:00

Hi all. Yink is here to post for the first time! Anyway, i wish i could turn back time.

Sigh.

Love you all.

2006-11-24T10:13:00.000+08:00

Hello lollypoppygirls!!! Its me, Xueting!! haha finally i got the ID and password correct and my first post here!! ENJOY!!!!!!

DENISE SCREAMS

2006-11-23T22:39:00.000+08:00

Announcement

To: ZiXuan aka Stephie & Samantha aka Sammy

Please get your blogs soon! So I can go link you up! :DD

Take care girls and see y'all tomorrow in school.

Love,

xoxoxo

Here comes the lollypoppygirl =P

2006-11-23T12:11:00.000+08:00

hihihihiiiiiiiiiii
well.... i'll start breaking the ice then,
is me xuan aka stephie... LOL
our blog is finally up =))
we'll entertain u with loads of fun stories & photos
smirks (^-^)*
more upcomings, so stay tune ppl =)

<3 xoOxXxOox

DENISE SCREAMS

2006-11-23T11:35:00.000+08:00

Hey Poppies!

Welcome to our first blog! :D

Love,
xoxoxo